willow ([info]beautiful_bones) wrote,
@ 2001-12-06 07:33:00
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Current mood: dirty

i need inspiration...
i binged last night..
i binged worse then i have in a very long time... it was as if i simply couldn't be full, and so i kept filling myself- filling this void inside me- as if i thought fat, calories and food will save me.
it wont. i have to keep this in my head during this time of temptation... christmas will not be my undoing, i will not lose Ana to this holiday of fat and food.. i just can't.
i feel shitty today. i feel full, distended, like my stomach has stretched overnight... i feel heavy, disgusting and fat.
i will eat nothing today..
i'm going to take 'Wasted' out of the library today... marya, how i admire her.. and she will give me the inspiration i need to keep Ana by my side...


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READ ME.
(Anonymous)
2003-04-05 11:58 am UTC (link)
PLEASE GET SOME HELP. IF YOU REALLY WANTED 'INSPIRATION' FROM MARYA, YOU WOULD SEE THE REAL REASON SHE WROTE HER BOOK! SHE TOLD HER STORY TO HELP PEOPLE LIKE US REALIZE THAT THIS IS *NOT* THE ANSWER. YOU'RE NOT REALLY LIVING. YOU ARE SLOWLY KILLING YOURSELF! THERE ARE DEEPER ISSUES BEHIND YOUR PAIN AND THAT IS WHAT YOU NEED TO DEAL WITH. IF YOU WERE RAPED, ABUSED, NEGLECTED- PLEASE GET COUNSLING AND ASK FOR HELP!! IT'S THE ONLY WAY TO TRULY LIVE AND FEEL CONFIDENT WITHIN YOURSELF AND YOUR MIND!! YOUR BODY IS ONLY A VESSEL FOR YOUR SOUL. WITHOUT A HEALTHY, STRONG, NOURISHED BODY- YOU'RE SOUL CANNOT LIVE. STARFIRE0912@YAHOO.COM IS MY E-MAIL, ASK ME QUESTIONS AND I WILL ANSWER THEM. CUSS ME OUT, I DON'T CARE. GET YOUR FEELINGS OUT AND LOVE YOURSELF!! I'M A COMPULSIVE OVEREATER/BINGER AND I'M LEARNING HOW TO SAVE MYSELF. SOUNDS CORNY AS FUCK BUT IT'S TRUE AND IT'S THE ONLY WAY!!

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