willow's Journal

i am alone...
all i have eaten in the last two days is a ferrer rocher (?) chocolate.. i don't want to think about how many calories were in that...
and now i'm at home. alone.
my parents have gone out of town to a friends house for his b-day party, and i didn't go. they expect me to eat while they are gone.. i could. it would be so very easy to binge without them here.. without their watchful eyes, asking why i'm so hungry.. my mom telling me that i'm going to get fat.
which is true.
i am going to get fat.
and that, is why i am not going to eat tonight.. at all. then it will be two days in which i have eaten next to nothing.
i'm getting closer to Ana every day.. the lies, the excuses roll off my tongue like nothing.. almost as if Ana is the one talking for me... and i like it. this feeling of emptiness. light, like air.
yes... i will eat nothing tonight.
what a beautiful word nothing is...

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