willow's Journal

i need inspiration...
i binged last night..
i binged worse then i have in a very long time... it was as if i simply couldn't be full, and so i kept filling myself- filling this void inside me- as if i thought fat, calories and food will save me.
it wont. i have to keep this in my head during this time of temptation... christmas will not be my undoing, i will not lose Ana to this holiday of fat and food.. i just can't.
i feel shitty today. i feel full, distended, like my stomach has stretched overnight... i feel heavy, disgusting and fat.
i will eat nothing today..
i'm going to take 'Wasted' out of the library today... marya, how i admire her.. and she will give me the inspiration i need to keep Ana by my side...

Current Mood: dirty

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